Freed for Service
by Evelyn Dick with
Russell Bixler
"Watching the love of God
heal person after person challenged me. I quietly asked Him to heal me
too...."
The Spirit of the lord God has been placed upon me, because
the Lord has anointed me. He has sent me to bring good news to the
suffering, to heal hears that are broken, to proclaim for captives release
from slavery and freedom to those who are in .
Thus Jesus appropriated Isaiah 61:1 to Himself in the synagogue at
Nazareth. I believe it - every work of it. Jesus has done it for me.
Broken Home
I was born in a broken home. My parents may have lived together, but
it was a broken home, nevertheless. Arguing, criticism, tension were all
so much a part of my childhood that I hardly knew anything else. Indeed,
if it weren't for the hours I spent in my uncle's and aunt's house, where
the Bible was read and prayer was heard, I would hardly have had any idea
of what a home should be like.
I suffered frequent stomach aches which our doctor was unable to
diagnose. But the worst ache of all was the one in my heart. How
desperately I wanted to experience a little love! I never had any
fingernails, always biting them as short as possible. Worst of all,
perhaps, were several of my teen years with the daily dread of coming home
from school, anxiously asking myself, "Will Mom be home? Or has she
run off again?"
I learned to steel myself against these hurts. Refusing to face the
anxieties in my heart, I shoved those feelings down and worked hard to
excel in everything I did, seeking to win for myself a tiny morsel of
commendation.
Today, I am aware of a significant cause of those troubles. My
mother's family had for years been involved in practices. My
grandmother would practice "pow-wow" to stop bleeding. Mom often
sought out such "doctors". It actually works, but the
demonic after-effects bring great hardship and misery. We just didn't know
better.
The Early Years
LeRoy and I have been married fifty years and have served three former
pastorates, in two of which I was further hurt by events and people. Still
not admitting to myself or to others the deep needs of my life, I gritted
my teeth and energetically strove to be a good pastor's wife. But LeRoy
often wondered about those hard knots in the back muscles just below my
neck.
In 1962 shortness of breath, chest pains and occasional attacks of
rapid heartbeat forced me to seek medical help. The doctor placed me on
tranquilizers and I felt great. But after six months I decided not to be
dependant upon tranquilizers and abruptly set the pills aside.
Such a deep depression immediately settled upon me that I had to be
hospitalized. There the doctor diagnosed a thyroid deficiency.
"Fortunately", he added, "the pills are cheap, since you'll
be on them the rest of your life". Several times I stubbornly tried
to eliminate the thyroid pills, but each time returning symptoms forced me
into renewed dependence. Without the pills I simply couldn't function. Shall
We Move to Pittsburgh?
In 1972 LeRoy was suggested as a pastoral replacement for the Pittsburgh
Church of the Brethren. Russ Bixler had resigned, but would be staying on
as in a limited associate role. Other ministers proclaimed that they
"would not touch that situation with a ten foot pole". Yet LeRoy
felt strangely drawn to the Pittsburgh Church.
Their Ministerial Commission suggested a visit to one of the Sunday
evening services. I was a little confused by not understanding what was
happening during the service, but I didn't sense the irrational fear that
many people feel when they first experience the supernatural power of God.
The Bixlers invited us to dinner. Russ spoke rather sternly, "This
is a wonderfully-exciting pastorate, but I'm only going to tell you the
lousy aspects of it. Then if you still want to come to Pittsburgh, you'll
be a great success."
In a short period of time Russ described in detail each disappointing
situation in the church, then announced triumphantly, "Everything
else is great!"
How different! We mused to ourselves.
Russ and Norma later noted to each other that I seemed like a person on the
defensive - tense, and ready to ward off the next impending blow.
We met with the Ministerial Commission. LeRoy and I were braced of the
usual ugly question, "What's your attitude toward the National
Council of Churches?" Instead the Commission excitedly witnessed to
us - individually - about what Jesus Christ had done in their lives. And
they loved us. The love of God just radiated from them.
Driving home that night, LeRoy and I know that our lives were somehow
going to be different. Even if we didn't receive a call to the Pittsburgh
Church we were going to be different.
Moving to Pittsburgh
When the call came, the ominous warnings also began. Pastors would solemnly
warn LeRoy of the terrible situation he was walking into. Their wives
cautioned me in similar manner. "It really must be bad," we
thought; and I became more tense than ever. Yet LeRoy continued to feel
this strange compulsion to go to Pittsburgh, although he had earlier
insisted that he would rather have a pastorate farther East.
A few months later the Pittsburgh congregation welcomed us to their
church. Immediately LeRoy was accepted as their pastor - and after
thirteen years with another, most unusual pastor. Their warmth toward us
was gentle, yet electric. We attended all the Sunday evening services, but
the congregation didn't push us to accept anything new. We simply
received more of what the Ministerial Commission had offered us - the love
of Jesus. This was utterly, totally new to me, but I surely liked
it.
Watching the love of God heal person after person challenged me.
I quietly asked Him to heal me too. One day I realized with a start
that I hadn't taken a thyroid pill in a week - no, two weeks - no, it must
be longer than that! He did it! He healed me too!
At Christmas time our son, Jim, came home from Manchester
College. During the holidays he attended a youth meeting in a barn
and returned with an unusual glow about him. Jim had been
"baptized in the Holy Spirit." He was excited about Jesus
in a way LeRoy and I had never been. A couple months later Jim came
through Pittsburgh on a college deputation trip and handed LeRoy his
fifty-dollar glasses. "I won't be using these anymore,"
Jim announced, and bubbled his way back to college.
That was almost too much for the Pennsylvania Dutch in his parents.
Fifty dollars! And Jim had worn glasses since the age of four! He just
didn't need them any longer.
Baptized in the Holy Spirit
But we were genuinely touched, and on March 11, 1973, after less than
six months of witnessing God's miracles on a continuing, weekly basis, we
could resist His love no longer. We asked one of our deacons to pray that
we too be baptized in the Holy Spirit.
LeRoy's pastoral prayers immediately began to reveal a new sense of
power and authority. it was so much easier for me to smile. I could laugh
with the church members with an ease I hadn't known before. I was
beginning to experience that deep peace of God that Jesus described in
John 14.
Healed of a Broken Heart
On Sunday evening September 15, 1974 (I could never forget that date,
either), Norma Bixler announced that the Holy Spirit had told her that
someone in the congregation had been healed of a broken heart. A liquid
warmth began to flow through my body. I knew something good was happening.
A few minutes later Norma said with a bit of insistence, "The Lord
has a gift package for someone here, but you must unwrap the box and
receive the gift."
"Don't look any farther," I told Russ. "It's for
me." My face was pink and I was wearing a strange grin. A tremendous
sensation of well-being came over me as something unpleasant left my body.
I became so relaxed, I almost fell off the pew. And I was so warm! Deep
breaths began filling my lungs. I didn't know a human being could breathe
so deeply. Such freedom! My father and mother! I loved them! I
forgave them - so easily! All those ugly memories, the scars on my
personality, were healed. I had been delivered of all the oppression! But
the breathing! I was so deep, so pleasing, so precious to inhale
abundantly of God's free air. LeRoy put his arms around me in a joyful
hug. When his fingers touched high on my back, they sank softly into
tender, feminine flesh for the first time. Those hard knots were gone! We
both cried and praised God. Within several weeks I was happily
displaying my new fingernails to all who would look. Life is so
exciting in Christ! I just love Jesus. And I know He Loves me! He now
provides more opportunities to be genuinely helpful to other people -
people in need - than ever before. But now! - Jesus has set me free to do
it! The scripture is so true, "how God anointed Jesus of Nazareth
with the Holy Spirit and power; how he went about doing good and healing
all that were oppressed by the devil, for God was with Him." POSTSCRIPT March
12, 1990 In the months following these experiences I spent
many hours with my mother in a time of reconciliation and witnessing to
her. As the years passed by our love and respect for one another grew. I
spent the last two weeks of my mother's life with her and was by her
bedside when she died. What a joy it was for us as my
Dad visited us in Pittsburgh and we celebrated with him as God healed
him of curvature of the spine. Although I had always felt close to my
Dad, we grew even closer in the years before his death. I
thank God that I have been freed, not only for service, but that I was
freed to minister to my parents. Evelyn Dick
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